narcissisism to the max..

Three long years and very slight improvement? ok maybe on my behalf,i had to learn "his way" follow "his way" or else i would be running out of labels...Fact remains,(HE WOULD NEVER CHANGE)...In order for my marriage to work i had to change my way of understanding to value his,my way of motivation to stand along side him,my way of every single thing to accommodate his way..

I lost the one friend i had,losing the one family member i was trying to rekindle with and also losing my head over what was suppose to be a combine relationship,joining in two's but always staying at one...ME!..I AM ALONE! there would be no husband to help me through anything that is a family task,or friend task for that matter..

I am not allowed to hang with friends at bars,not allowed to hang with girlfriends as they would influence me.Not allowed to do nothing without permission or proper consent..

Hello! am i married to Mr.Narcissis...yes!!!!!!...def...well,he goes on his fishing trips with his buddies while the little wife have to stay at home and play dolly house...

The minute i flip out,the second i stand up for my rights,my marriage would end..I stated in a previous conversation with him about family and the importance of it,friends and how i miss them..He went on to say:

"""I AM YOUR ONLY FRIEND,AND FAMILY ARE BACK STABBERS..'''''....The world revolves around his pathetic needy ways..I am sickkkkkkk to my stomach..Had i not really love him i'd begone a long time now..Have i had it up to ''''HERE''' a few more rounds then maybe i'll be gone....


lovehurts....