This song ... for my specific situation. It really is what is in my heart. It might bring one of you comfort too:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ve2pS-jxXz0
Lyrics
Every word you're saying is a lie
Run away my dear
But every sign will say your heart is dead
Bury all the memories
Cover them with dirt
Where's the love we once had
Our destiny's unsure
Why can't you see what we had
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
Closer to insanity
Buries me alive
Where's the life we once had
It cannot be denied
Why can't you see what we had
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
You run away
You hide away
To the other side of the universe
where you're safe from all that hunts you down
But the world has gone
Where you belong
And it feels too late so you're moving on
Can you find your way back home?
And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I
Every word you're saying is a lie.
NEVER
Submitted by GiveMePatience on
NEVER give up hope.
At times, it may be THE ONLY THING that you have to hold on to.
Hold on to it TIGHT.
I agree with you, but you do
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
I agree with you, but you do gotta be careful where you put that hope. For me, I have reinvested all my hope into myself and my own future. I am holding on tight to the hope of a full and happy life, with out my husband who has given up long ago.
SpaceyStacey, I understand..
Submitted by GiveMePatience on
SpaceyStacey, I understand.. and I KNOW and feel your pain... but, if I may...
PLEASE... when you think about the difficulties and 'failings' with your husband... and your marriage... KNOW that he DID NOT 'give up' on YOU. He 'gave up' on fighting and TREATING the symptoms of ADHD...
I wish you both the very best.
Thanks, and I do understand
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
Thanks, and I do understand the sentiment. But the end result is the same. What it boils down to is that he gave up not only of managing adhd, but his other issues as well because in the end, nothing we have built and gained in the past 7 years was worth it to him to make the effort or continue even the small token efforts he made. No worries, while he might not value me in the end, I do value me. :)
"No worries, while he might
Submitted by GiveMePatience on
"No worries, while he might not value me in the end, I do value me. :)"
As you SHOULD 'value YOU'! ESPECIALLY having had the patience and after TRYING to 'stick it out' for such a long time.
You KEEP ON 'valuing YOU', SS, and I AM SURE that someone SOON will value you, too! ;)
Thats right! :-) I have no
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
Thats right! :-) I have no idea what my future will bring, but I dammed sure know that I will not accept less than - any more. If I am alone - I am cool with that, if I find a new love - I am cool with that too. What I wanted more than anything was to spend the rest of my life with my husband, but since he desires another path - time for me to start exploring options that I have. And from my point of view - they are ALL better than the unhappiness and sadness that has been handed to me for 7 years.
I love him dearly - but frankly, I know i deserve more and better, and if he doesnt want to be a better him and there for a better husband to me so be it. I still hope he becomes a better man, but if he doesnt - it not take me down with him like it has been. I am worth more than any dammed video game. I am worth more than facebook and a phone, I am worth more than a fraking cigarette. I am worth more than apathy, lies and self centeredness.
He has taken steps to improve himself. If he continues - then this will be the longest he has gone other than the one time a few years ago when he took control (see my posts in Hope and Progress to see what I mean there). All I can do is continue to focus on myself and my life - because I am very fortunate to have a killer career, a beautiful house, I own my own vehicle, and I am making dreams that I have had for years come true. I wanted to share that with him - but its his life, and he doesnt want it. So more power to him.
"I wanted to share that with
Submitted by GiveMePatience on
"I wanted to share that with him - but its his life, and he doesnt want it. So more power to him."
I say, MORE POWER TO YOU!!!!! ;)
GMP One More Time
Submitted by kellyj on
I agree with you GMP. Video says a thousand words in this cae. Time for a pep talk I think. I included this somewhere in the past but it's timing is perfect.(in light of what's happening in Rio right now ) For Stacey, going along with what you said.....it doesn't get any better than this.
https://youtu.be/tdmyoMe4iHM
J-man you are killing me!!!
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
J-man you are killing me!!! Hitting all my sweet spots. Samurai stories, TzunTzu, Kelley beans and now hockey, and a scene from one of my favorite movies!!!!
I love it, this is indeed MY TIME!!! And I will take what is mine, and be the best me FOR ME!!!! I love a god underdog story, about time I start seeing my own and living up to my own "miracle".