Intention and Consistency

"Art without intention is just an accident"

This was a phrase I learned long ago about doing art which is absolutely true. If you're just throwing paint on a canvas ( or whatever ) and it just happens to come out looking okay, there is no intention, that's just an accident. Like rolling the dice and hoping it comes up the numbers you want. That's just gambling, it's not a calculated risk. Same idea.

I'm finding, that setting a specific goal, with a specific intended outcome, and staying true and consistent  to that singular goal, despite the obstacles in your way will eventually come to pass if you stay on course. Using this as a football analogy would work extremely well but I'm finding its also working with me and my ADHD ( or any other ) symptoms. Being consistent, as to your end goal, is what you want. That doesn't mean being perfect. Striving to be perfect (always) actually can get in your way and cause a lot of anxiety.

Consistent means...most of the time, but staying on course even when you fail. That's my goal.

And even if the person you're with has a 0 tolerance attitude...it's still not the goal or the intention in other words....that would be perfection. 

I'm simply reflecting back on what has worked with me. My SO holds herself to perfection standards which is difficult to ever attain. That also carries over to me at times, which for her...is a sign that "I'm not doing ( it ) ....what ever it is. 

By staying consistent ( with intention ) to what I want for myself....eventually she's seeing that I'm not perfect...but good enough.  That's a departure from 0 tolerance....to a compromise between black and white to some shades of gray. I'm a shades of gray person ( most of the time ) so that's good enough for me too. 

This seems to be working. I can live with that and it appears she can too. 

PS.  It's also working the other way with her. When she defaults to something like a belittling comment ( happened just the other day ) the fact that she's not doing it the vast majority of the time makes those moments easier to swallow and just let it go. Allowing her to be wrong ( grace ) is a big part of it. She actually apologized later too.

The best way to stay out of a fight is not getting in the ring in the first place.